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Okay, so my boyfriend is CONSTANTLY being an ass.  Latest is his ex-girlfriend asked him to support her when she got pregnant and she doesn't want the father around.  They haven't talked for months, like 9 months(or as far ask I know) and she randomly goes to HIM.  And he doesn't get why I don't like it.  We are 14, and he almost had sex with her when they were going out a year and a half ago, making him fucking 12.  I won't sleep with him.  And he thinks that I dont like it because I think he still has feelings for her.  Not feelings of the mind, feelings that are in the pants.  She is really really pretty, and though people say I am, I don't care.

Recently I got blamed for cheating on him, when I didn't, but he doesn't believe me!  And then this happens, but when we were fighting about it he said he's cheated on all his girlfriends in the past that have cheated on him.  So I asked him if that meant he was going to cheat on me and he said no because he loved me too much, and no one was worth cheating on me for.  But it doesnt matter their worth I'm pretty sure.  So I have a feeling somethings going to happen and he isn't going to tell me.

He's lied to me before about things.  Like smoking weed, he told me he stopped when he started going out with me, but hes smoked since then, a lot. A couple he's told me about, but a couple others I've learned from his friends.  He is completely irrational, a hypocrite, a liar, and an ass.  All of my friends don't get why I'm still with him, and I don't either.

I could go on forever about things he's done, but I'll leave it at this for now.

Abused or not, when a parent revels (yes, our abuser reveled) in their psychological torture of their children, even if they are narcissistic or mentally ill, so long as they are sane in the eyes of the law, they are fully responsible for their abusive actions. Their own abuse as children does not negate their culpability and, if anything, it makes harder to understand as they went through it themselves and ought to know the pain.  I have stopped explaining away or trying to understand my mother's abuse toward us and have since let it be what it was - a deliberate and malicious attempt to destroy and control her possessions.  Yes, that's right, we were things, not individuals to her.  We were objectified.  We were simple extensions of her; much like the way a puppet master controls the strings of his playthings.  We had to play out life to her wishes.  If we dared to have an opinion that differed from hers, it was a capital offense with corporal punishment the result.  She was the “queen” (and had even described herself as such on many occasions) and if she had a beef with someone, we had to hate that person too.  Our father died and she beat us and tortured our little minds because we dared to grieve for him and not adore her.  She was a narcissist and a sick woman.  She murdered our souls.  She humiliated us with her slutty behavior, her drinking, drugs, and mental/physical/emotional abuse.  She is dead now.  Dead for 7.5 years.  Her destruction lives on.

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GOD DAMN IT FACEBOOK

I'm trying to talk to friends; they send me a chat message, and as soon as I start typing a fucking word, they're "offline". SOCIAL NETWORKING MY ASS! How the fuck am I supposed to be networking when you're logging me off every time I try? What the fuck's your problem, facebook? It's not like you've got something better to do! All you gotta do is send a couple of fucking 26 character messages. Can you not handle that? Are you not up to it? WELL I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. QUIT DIDDLING YOURSELF WITH YOUR OWN EMOTICONS AND LET ME HAVE A FUCKING CONVERSATION.

You are PSYCHO!!!

You want to get better?  You want to have a good relationship?  Then STOP SEEING PSYCHICS AND SEE A PSYCHOLOGIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Don't know the difference?  Let me explain...if they talk about feelings and past issues and want you to tell them about yourself and make you do all the talking and explaining, that's good!  That would mean that they are a Psychologist.  If they talk about the zodiac, birth charts, and what sign/house you were born under, they are a psychic.

If they went to school for 6 years, have a state license number and submit the bill to your health insurance company, they are a Psychologist.  If they 'read' your palm/tea leaves/bumps on your head and ask for $120 in cash for an hours worth of non-stop talk from them about NOTHING, they are a FRAUD PSYCHIC!!!!

You were molested by a friends brother, abandoned by your Dad, and had sex with random shitheads till you were 19.  You met me, married me, and promptly closed your legs.  I've been patient, but the PSYCHIC has GOT TO GO!!!!