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I just hate that there's nothing I can do. Nothing I can do for any of my trans friends who need my help, but specifically for my one friend. I can't make him taller, I can't take his dysphoria away, I can't make him look older, I can't make the world a safer place for him to come out in.

I can't make his self-image issues go away, and I can't be his therapist; as close to him as I'd like to be, I'm sure he doesn't feel the same way about me (not romantic, just very strong platonic emotions) and I know that everything that I can do to help just isn't enough.

And I hate so much to see my friends in any sort of pain, and it just hurts me so much that I can't do anything about it, and I just want to HELP, dammit.

It's not fair. Why can't I take on their pain? Or make it disappear? Or at least lessen it in some significant way?

And it's all online, too, so every time that something goes wrong, all I have is my words. I can't hug him, I can't do the sypathetic shoulder pat, I can't be his shoulder to cry on. He cries. He cries, and it breaks my heart to know that.

I want to help him, and I want to help my other friends. I want to be the one they can go to, not to be helpless to actually do anything for them.

There's nothing I can do. I hate it.

I hate my 'friends'. So damn much. Actually, basically there are like 4 of them that i really, REALLY would like to bitchslap right now.First of all, you should know that I'm an introvert. Like, EXTREMELY introverted.

Friend A: She is an abusive bully. I am not even kidding. She hates one of my friends and forces me to agree with her. She hits me whenever i do something she doesn't like, and is always commenting about how stupid, slow, ugly, etc. I am. She said, and i quote, to another friend (X) when X asked me for homework help:

Do you even know how stupid she is? If she helps you, you're going to fail...

Dear Ms. Analness.

Stop being so anal.

Do you think it's funny? DO you enjoy being the freaking jewish mother behavior of everyone? Because i think you do,at least, by the way you act.

I mean, come on!

"Skull are evil". WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?! Alot apparently. Grrrrrrr. Dude I swear when you grow up, you will be a nun and still be 4' 3". Whatever the hell (Oooh I said hell! That's apparently where Imma go, according to your fucking delusional pastor) is stunting your growth (Probably that stick up your ass that keeps you from enjoying LIFE) build a motherfucking bridge and get over it.

It is not enough that you pracitcally dance around the room with yur Perfect report card, oh noooooo. You just have to be the freaking queen of the Preps.

You look like a damn fairy.

I'm not even trying to be mean. It's the truth.

SO, when you finally pull your head out of your ass long enough to realize that grades arent everything, go to hell. I'll meet you there.

~The Sinnerrrrrrr.

Hey, bitch.

It's me; the girl who is supposed to be your fucking best friend? Oh no, did i cuss? and, *gasp* desecrate your little virgin ears? Oh no, I'm SORRY. Sorry as hell.

I mean, honestly, could you be any more of a wannabe? You hang out with the 'popular' crowd, which is actually a bunch of b list sluts. Sorry babe, can't wait to see you hanging out with the cupcakes ALL men have taken a bite out of.

 Oh wait, but that doesn't matter to you, right? Just as long as you're popular... News flash, sweet cheeks, I haven't even heard your name from other people. They don't know that you're there. and probably never will.

It disgusts me that you along with the crowd, absolutely does, you annoying little whiny wench. Everything they do, you copy. They buy uggs, you buy uggs. Silly bands for them? YOu now have fifty silly bands all the way until your motherfucking elbow.