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I've liked a girl since vslentines day last year, i know she likes me too, im just not her typical boyfriend i.e. i treat her with respect, unlike her past boyfriends who cheated, lied and made excuses not to see her. worst part is, she tells me how unhappy she is, how her boyfriend hardly spends anytime with her, constantly argues with her to the point they nearly break up etc. In her own words shes settling for him because she likes him n they live near each other (we dont, thats the problem - like a 50 mile distance n i dont drive yet..)

a few weeks back she text me out of the blue saying she loved me n wanted us to get back to the way we were n that she was gonna dump her boyfriend. I waited it out n when i spoke to her a couple of days later she'd decided to give him another chance because she didnt want another failed relationship.

im just hoping when i do finally get to be with her, it lasts longer than i've waited for her LOL!

I want to know something.

Why do you all expect so much from me? Just a question. Also, how the fuck do you expect me to pass, let alone do well in an exam with SO MUCH FAMILY SHIT GOING ON.

Didn't you want me to go Law School? Here I am. I can't take mum's place when she's away all the time.

Please tell me. WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?

Here. Take EVERYTHING. Oh, wait, you've already done that, haven't you?

My fucking mistake, letting family take over my life.

I am such a fool...such a fool.

Why do I have to have such a fucked up family? Nothing ever goes my way but I still get no attention from the people I sacrafice so much for. No one cares about the positive things I do and I could never top the negetive things my family has aleady done. No one wants to know how I'm doing, they're too concerned about the people that my life has always revolved around. I try to get away but they are a constant stress on my mind.

Worst of all, through all the shit I've witnessed and had to go through I'm always an innocent bystander who has to pick up the pieces.. For once I want to be the one causing a scene or yelling for no practical reason at someone who does everything for me. I'm always the victim but I'm never seen as one so I'm forced to keep everything inside.

I never thought I'd say this but why can't someone just directly piss ME the fuck off so I can feel like I have the right to be a bitch.

I'm tired of it being about everyone else

I want to tell people what I really think and stop trying to please them because it might just cause me to never be pleased myself.

I should just suck it in and declare that you're gone.  Clearly you're not--you'll go to my art shows and you'll keep eating lunch with me (and the six or seven others with their zombie-oriented conversations), but if you look at how it used to be, yes, you are.  There was a time when you devoted a slender fraction of your life to friendship, and that fraction has become a hair's breadth; all that remains is some half-assed obligation that you think will distract me from your absence.

What's behind your mass of flippy curls and thick skull?  I love you, as unconditionally as my own blood, and you refuse to see that anything that affects you, real or imagined, affects me too.

I continue to value our friendship despite your continued behaviors which let me down, over and over and over. You're brilliant, and I want to be there when you're at your best, but your worst is wasting my time.  I'm not going to write you anymore.  Your cowardice is not worth a postage stamp.

Boyfriend of Seven years,..

You annoy me because you know you are an alcoholic. I swore to myself on my drive home that you are retarded if I come home and find that you are drinking again. Yes and there you were with your beloved glass of wine. I am starting to hate you more everyday, because you always choose alcohol over me. I cant forgive you anymore