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I just don't get it. Everywhere I see-couples, couples, couples. My sister (whom I'm very close to) has this perfect boyfriend who buys her expensive gifts, treats her well, and really likes her. All my friends are falling in love, finding that one guy that makes their heart beat. And guess who gets left in the dust, feeling like complete shit?

And I don't get it. I'm nice to everyone, people even say I'm nice and very optimistic. So far, I never had a boyfriend. They keep on slipping through my fucking butterfingers. Some beautiful nice pretty girl who is better than me always come by right when I accept that a guy might actually like me and swipes him away! I'm not ugly either. I'm tall and thin, and had guys flirt with me before. If all those other people can get the right one, why can't I?

I just want someone to love me back, you know? I'm sick of going into that stupid fairytale bubble where everything is perfect and dandy, then come crashing down when I realize it is the complete opposite. I'm sick of holding myself back, second guessing things, and always taking charge. I'm sick of being alone.

This is a rant about my on-again-off-again BF and the disrespectful whore that he is "friends" with... but the person I'm really angry with is myself for putting up with the situation and not cutting it off!

I've been dating and breaking up with F for the past few years, and the first I heard of his co-worker R was when F sent me through one of R's emails to see if I was comfortable or if he needed to say something to her... Needless to say the emails R was sending F at work were completely inappropriate and unprovoked.  Example: F sent R an email asking what she was baking for the 'bring a plate' morning tea the next day.  She replied pavlova (merangue base with cream and fruit for the non-Aussies).  He replied with a joke that pavlova was too easy and that he was baking cookies.  She replied with a question... "Would you prefer it if I covered myself in the whipped cream and let you lick it off?" Seriously, WHO DOES THAT YOU ARE SUCH A DISRESPECTFUL WHORE 'R'.  Disrespectful of my relationship with F, but also her own relationship with her live in boyfriend! So inappropriate.

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I've liked a girl since vslentines day last year, i know she likes me too, im just not her typical boyfriend i.e. i treat her with respect, unlike her past boyfriends who cheated, lied and made excuses not to see her. worst part is, she tells me how unhappy she is, how her boyfriend hardly spends anytime with her, constantly argues with her to the point they nearly break up etc. In her own words shes settling for him because she likes him n they live near each other (we dont, thats the problem - like a 50 mile distance n i dont drive yet..)

a few weeks back she text me out of the blue saying she loved me n wanted us to get back to the way we were n that she was gonna dump her boyfriend. I waited it out n when i spoke to her a couple of days later she'd decided to give him another chance because she didnt want another failed relationship.

im just hoping when i do finally get to be with her, it lasts longer than i've waited for her LOL!

I should just suck it in and declare that you're gone.  Clearly you're not--you'll go to my art shows and you'll keep eating lunch with me (and the six or seven others with their zombie-oriented conversations), but if you look at how it used to be, yes, you are.  There was a time when you devoted a slender fraction of your life to friendship, and that fraction has become a hair's breadth; all that remains is some half-assed obligation that you think will distract me from your absence.

What's behind your mass of flippy curls and thick skull?  I love you, as unconditionally as my own blood, and you refuse to see that anything that affects you, real or imagined, affects me too.

I continue to value our friendship despite your continued behaviors which let me down, over and over and over. You're brilliant, and I want to be there when you're at your best, but your worst is wasting my time.  I'm not going to write you anymore.  Your cowardice is not worth a postage stamp.