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Is Happiness Anywhere? Family? FWB? College? |
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RantRank: 32 - Deal with it (27 votes)
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Submitted by Stacy
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basically, i cannot fucking stand my family: my forgetful and embarrassing mother who i cannot wait to leave for 6 weeks, my brother with asperger's who i can and never will relate to or be able to share a bond with, and my dad who i don't even fucking talk to. i do not give a shit what's going on in their lives for the next 6 weeks and right now i just want to magically disappear away from everything.
the guy that i fell so hard for changed his feelings for me and i can't even begin to...
...describe how complicated the situation is. he was the first guy to like me for who i really was and who made me feel like something. the first guy i got really intimate with. he was the guy that all the girls chased after but he chose ME, and that's the first time i ever had that attention. i was hoping before i left for 6 weeks on saturday that i could see him and lose my virginity. i just want to know what it feels like and be able to say that i lost it to someone who mattered. but it looks like it's NOT HAPPENING. WHY? because my time of the month just happened tonight and i don't know how the hell he's gonna want to do it if i'm on my period. UGH, i'm not seeing him for six weeks and i'm so afraid that he's going to go hook up with other girls while i'm gone, even though we're just FWB.
i found out who his ex gf was 4 years ago and she was drop dead gorgeous. i'm nothing like her and i can't stop thinking about it cause it makes me feel so insecure. they were each others firsts and i just feel totally incompetent. ugh.
all i want is to be happy and i can't find it anywhere. i don't know what to do but i'm just gonna tough out another year of high school till i'm off to college.
Readers have left 6 comments.  1. swessonI don't understand why losing your virginity to a FWB will bring you happiness. In fact, I don't understand why having sex with him changes anything. will he wait for you (six weeks) if you did? if you think so, you are wrong) 2. Kimera22 "I lost it to someone who mattered"? HUH? this doesnt make any sense. he obviously doesn't matter that much if he's gonna go bang other girls while you are gone for only six weeks.
why are you in such a rush to lose it? seriously...you are speaking of not getting happiness and the reason is because you are on a rag? 3. Guest User yeah, you hooking up with him now won't change what he's gonna do in next weeks. sorry. just plain fact. 4. kkkkssss having a period is not an incompetence. i can see that your plan was ruined but really? not sure having sex with him would have changed anything. 5. StevenO popular dudes get everything. fuck. 6. Guest User Dont lose it to some fucking guy. Lose it to a guy who has PROVEN he loves you by marrying you first. A guy that will do ANYTHING for you. Don't give me that crap "someone who matters". Who judgmental are you? Everyone matters. Give it to someone who can protect you and won't ditch you when the baby has crapped all over his back. |
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