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Dear Mom - Can you just be supportive |
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RantRank: 75 - True...true... (24 votes)
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Submitted by BadDay
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I know this is for anger and all, but, idk, i guess i just want someone to listen to me. mom. I'm sorry I'm not perfect. I know that i've never gotten an accedemic warning a day in my life, but don't you see that i'm trying? That this year has just been hard? I'm sorry ok. We've only had like 2 tests in each class and i know i failled a lot of them but i'm trying to keep my head above water here. My ex-boyfriend who I loved I found out told his new girlfriend he loved her. we broke up in july. I'm mad at him because now i'm questioning our whole relationship. My best friend has been the biggest bitch lately and we're just recovering from our first like major fight that the only reason i think we're still friends is that no one else wants to be her friend. Pieces of my past keep popping up randomly and i hate it and worst off i'm like failing 3 of 8 classes. I'm ready to find a hole and just sleep and cry. I don't need you telling me how bad i'm doing. I Know how bad i'm doing. I don't need to be reminded and made to feel worse by you. I'm sorry ok. I'm sorry. I'm not the daughter you wanted and I know that. and no, just because i'm getting academic warnings does not mean the school is going to kick me out. trust me. i don't want you hanging over my shoulder. in fact i really hate you sometimes. i really do. you're not encouraging, you're mean and you're a bitch. you want to control me and like fuck i'm gonna let you. my friends and family are not help or support right now. I mean what can they do? i just hate that my friends are all drifting apart and i'm afraid we won't find our way back to each other soon. and my family is just made up of arrogant assholes. I'm sorry i'm not good enough. I'm sorry i'm not strong anymore. I'm sorry i'm crazy and that i hate you so much. i know you think i'm crazy and i'm sorry. nothing hurts worse then having a child who's "not well" i'm sorry. but you know what? you made me that way. so i hope it goes with you to the motherfucking grave. I'm sorry i'm a fucking piece of shit. i'm sorry about those things that happened 2-3 years ago. I can't go back to change it, and no one will let me forget it. fuck. i just hate everything and i don't know what to do or who to go to. God can't help me now because only I can help me. He may make miracles but that only goes so far. I'm sorry i'm letting everyone down. I'm just sorry.
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