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Submitted by Lei
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I cannot fucking take this anymore. You treat me like im a fucking dog
or something. your cats sit by the window all day, crying, begging to
get out. to get away from you. guess what? thats all i want too. i am a
fucking kid and youre going to fucking ruin me for fucking life if you
keep it up. you think keeping me locked up in this tiny shitty room is
going to teach me anything? you think this is going to make me a good
person? you think keeping me away from everyone is going to make me
sociable? you think not allowing me to even talk to the opposite sex
will make me a lovable person? i have suffered my entire life, thinking
im worthless, stupid, ugly, and not worthy of others. all because of
you. you made me think this way by keeping me trapped. i cannot fucking
stand it anymore. don't even get me started on your paranoia. your fear
mongering isnt going to make me safe. its going to ruin me. when i was a
seven year old, i used to lie awake at night, scared to death that
someone was going to break into the house and rape and kill us all. you
made me soft. you made me scared. you ruined me. guess fucking what? im
not going to fucking take it anymore. once i get out of here, im gone
and im never coming home again. the worst part is that you lie and say
you love me. if you loved me, you would let me go. i'm sick of your
lies, your fear mongering, your control. all i want is to be gone. but i
realized something. if i cut myself, you win. if i kill myself, you
win. you don't deserve a single fucking tear from me. you dont deserve a
kid like me. i hope that one day, you get stuck with the fucking kid
from hell, and maybe you'll realize just how wrong you were by fucking
me up like this. thanks for everything, mom and dad.
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